Sometimes.. You just have those talks with people where something they said just sticks in your head and won't leave. That happened to me today. Tomorrow marks exactly two years since I last talked with Lyndsey. Since she gave me a hug. Everything. And then on Monday.. November 1st it will be EXACTLY two years since she's passed. It just seems so unreal. I looked through some yearbooks and got angry.. She should still be here and she's not.
It's not fair!
So, I was on the phone with my dad and I was telling him all of this and he was talking about how he was reading the Bible just recently and something to the effect of.. God put a holiday in every month to take people's minds off of reality and death and work and school.. Just everyday life and look at a holiday instead.
For some reason, that's just stuck in my mind all day. It probably has no significance to you, reader but I just can't get it out of my head.
Tomorrow and Monday.. ughh..
Happy Halloween Eve.
Eat a lot of candy tomorrow.
God bless.
xo, Kayla
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Welcome Home
Let down,
In search of a purpose to feel like she's worth the breath.
To feel like there's something to hold to when there's nothing left.
She looks to the sky,
Says "If anyones out there, save me from being alone. God if You're out there help me find my way home."
She wonders why,
She let it get this far.
She starts to cry.
She only wants the love,
Of open arms.
And if only she knew the love she had was calling out her name,
She'd break down her wall to ditch it all.
Who says.. You can't start it all again.
In her room,
She stands quiet releasing the pain at the base of her hand.
She's in this too deep and she's telling herself that she can't
Get out.
Oh how it'd be different if she had somebody to show.
God if You're out there help me find my way home.
She wonders why,
She let it get this far.
She starts to cry.
She only wants the love,
Of open arms.
And if only she knew the love she had was calling out her name,
She'd break down her wall and ditch it all.
Who says.. you can't start it all again.
She fell to her knees.
A rush up her spine.
Her heart beat with love.
Her lungs filled with life.
I've been waiting for You
You were never..
Alone.
Welcome home.
She now knows why,
She had it get this far.
She wipes her eyes.
She's got a love,
Inside her heart.
In search of a purpose to feel like she's worth the breath.
To feel like there's something to hold to when there's nothing left.
She looks to the sky,
Says "If anyones out there, save me from being alone. God if You're out there help me find my way home."
She wonders why,
She let it get this far.
She starts to cry.
She only wants the love,
Of open arms.
And if only she knew the love she had was calling out her name,
She'd break down her wall to ditch it all.
Who says.. You can't start it all again.
In her room,
She stands quiet releasing the pain at the base of her hand.
She's in this too deep and she's telling herself that she can't
Get out.
Oh how it'd be different if she had somebody to show.
God if You're out there help me find my way home.
She wonders why,
She let it get this far.
She starts to cry.
She only wants the love,
Of open arms.
And if only she knew the love she had was calling out her name,
She'd break down her wall and ditch it all.
Who says.. you can't start it all again.
She fell to her knees.
A rush up her spine.
Her heart beat with love.
Her lungs filled with life.
I've been waiting for You
You were never..
Alone.
Welcome home.
She now knows why,
She had it get this far.
She wipes her eyes.
She's got a love,
Inside her heart.
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