Q&A :)

I've been struggling a lot lately, reader.
It sucks because I want to vent to you but at the same time I don't. I'm not one to express my emotions directly so I hold it in and keep it to myself. I guess that's not the healthiest thing to do but I feel like nobody cares anymore anyways.
I just saw a commercial for Santa Paws 2. It looks absolutely adorable. I think it's like.. a knockoff of Air Bud. Those movies were so bomb until there was like.. Air Puppy and all that junk.
So.. I asked you to ask me some questions but since I didn't really receive any. I found a query of questions that I could answer. Courtesy of Facebook.

Name of the last person to text you?
Momma Bear <3 br="br">

When is your next road trip?
It will be in approximately an hour or less to road trip my way to stuff my face with food.

If the last person you kissed bumped into you at school, what would you say?
If that were to happen, I would be beyond ecstatic.
OH.. and I'd say.. kfjalsdkfjlaksjdflkj. Probably some sort of awkward excited noise.

What is the weather like?
The current weather condition is 70 degrees and sunny

Have you cried today at all?
How about you just don't worry about that?

What do you think about before you go to bed?
Well, when I'm going to sleep.. I tend to think about... sleep?

Where is your phone?
Right next to me.

How many close friends do you have?
Three.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Si. My brother is always there.

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
Unfortunately, yes. You know.. like when you're really hungry but you have to sit through a lecture instead.

Have you ever broken someone else's heart?
If someone breaks your heart, their heart in return will also be broken and vise versa.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
A second chance should always be awarded; however, after that.. I don't think so.

Do you wear flip-flops during the winter?
I'm not about that lifestyle. My feet are not about to suffer in the cold.

Do people say you have pretty eyes?
I've been told before, but I don't see it. My eyes resemble the droppings of your dog.

What do you carry with you at all times?
My spectacles so I am not blind.

Do you wear your seat belt in the car?
Click it or ticket, buckaroo.

Do you drink regular or diet soda?
I don't drink any sort of carbonated drink or soda whatsoever.

Do you smile often?
Smiling hides visible pain for others to see, so yes.

Why is your relationship status the way it is?
Most likely because I'm in a relationship. I mean.. I'm just guessing.

Have you ever touched an elephant?
That is on my bucket list, kid.

What are you going to do after this?
Eat my feelings away. Judge me.

You woke up naked next to the last person you texted..
Well.. that's awkward. "Hey mom."

Do you want to get married and have kids?
Doesn't everyone want that? 

When is your birthday?
December 16.

Would you like to smoke right now?
Smoking is by far thee nastiest thing ever invented.

What color shirt were you wearing during your last kiss?
Am I supposed to remember that stuff?

Are you unhappy with someone right now?
It is what it is.

Are you gonna have a baby by the time you're 18?
Well, I'm almost 19. I'm assuming I survived this question.

How is your day so far?
Shitty, thanks.

Why?
Forget it.

Whats the greatest thing that happened to you today?
I watched Jerry Springer.

Do you know anyone who is pregnant right now?
I did but that gorgeous girl pushed her little girl out earlier this morning.

Do you still pinky promise?
Correction. I pinky promise quack.

Name something you're doing this week?
I will watch Christmas movies all weekend and eat food. I know, I know.. It's an exciting life.

Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?
In exactly one week. :')

Have you ever felt like you literally needed someone?
Last night/early this morning. Thank you for being there <3 br="br">

Does anything hurt on your body?
My back really does. Can I hire one of those Asian masseuse from the mall to help me out?

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Jefferey <3 br="br">

Do you wear your feelings all over your face?
Nope, that gives someone the opportunity to ask you whats wrong which in turn creates you to be vulnerable. No thanks to that.

Do you believe everyone has a soul mate?
Yes. I believe mine are kitties.

Who did you last talk to for longer than 4 minutes on the phone?
Momma Bear. Thank goodness.

Do you like pancakes?
Yes. Especially when my boyfriend makes me them. Omnomnom.

Have you told anybody you love them today?
Yes. I constantly tell people that.

How often do you give high fives?
I can't say it's been recent.

Do you like surprises?
I despise them.

Do you believe ex's can be friends?
It all depends on the relationship. It's different for every single person, ya know?

Have you ever, in any way, been betrayed by someone you trusted?
Who hasn't?

When people say "I don't ever talk about anyone" do you believe it?
No. People always need a bitch session at one point or another.

Did you date anyone this summer?
I'm still dating that amazing boy :)

How many cell phone(s) have you had in your life?
I want to say.. 5. That sounds correct.

Will you regret your next kiss?
Of course not. He is my everything <3 br="br">

Are you the youngest person living in your house?
No. In fact, I'm the second oldest. Score.

Do you think the last person you kissed cares for you?
It's nothing I need to even think about because I know he does.

Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
One person sounds amazing to me.

Is anything bothering you?
No. Life is just full of rainbows and butterflies. Unicorns trample on this gorgeous earth we live on and blah blah blah.. YES.

The last person you kissed on the lips said that you were the only one they wanted, Would you believe them?
He reminds me of this every single day. I can't help but believe my man :)

Do your good memories outweigh the bad?
I think bad always sticks in your mind longer, as opposed to the happy memories.

Do you know anyone who doesn't smoke pot?
Yes. I love those peole

You can get a puppy or a new car. Which do you choose?
Car, please. Preferably a range rover.

Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight?
I always do.


Hopefully that wasn't too boring, reader. I hope you have a magnificent day and maybe I will blog again tonight. If you want. Would you like that? Hmm? Would ya?
Anyways. It's almost Christmas break. We can do this reader.
Muah!<3 p="p">
God bless.
xoxo, Kayla

Fa-La-La-La-La-La-La-La Readdddddd :)

Fa-la-la-laaaa. La la la la. Happy December!
I am not really sure why but December is my favorite month in the whole year. It's right after Thanksgiving (my favorite holiday) and then goes into a month full of cheer and Jesus Christ. Everyone begins to put up Christmas lights and the weather begins to get cold. It allows you to sit by the fireplace with a cup of coffee or hot chocolate and just enjoy people's company.
I don't know what it is about the month. It just brings me joy.
Is it weird that I can't wait until I have my own family and can decorate a tree with my husband and children?
I've been thinking a lot about my future lately and it's scary and exciting. The fact that I'm almost 20 in less than a year is crazy and the fact that I want to be married and have kids in five years or less is so unreal. Maybe my fantasy is somewhat unrealistic but I'm sticking to it.
I'm starting to feel more and more independent every single day. I pay for my own bills and rent. All of that stuff. All while achieving my dreams at becoming a lawyer.
I'm really in the mood to bake some cookies and watch cartoons. I was watching Spongebob but it is now over and I'm watching Boy Meets World. I was going through all these shows I used to watch in the late 90's and early 2000. It's ridiculous. Do you remember All That? Or The Amanda Show? Remember that skit "The Good Burger"? "Welcome to the Good Burger. Home of the Good Burger. May I take your order?" Hahaha. Goodness gracious.
If I could be anywhere right now, it would be Chicago. Why you ask? I don't know what it is about that city but I adore it. Every single thing. The cold weather. The skyscrapers. It's just a real beauty.
Currently I'm listening to KFlowz. His music is amazing. http://www.reverbnation.com/kflowz
Listen to it :) I'm listening to Far Away 2. Miss Damaged is also an amazing song. He has so much potential, it's just ridiculous.
I'm starting to realize that this blog is not really on a specific topic and I just keep going from one subject to another, without organized order. I hope that is okay with you, reader. If not, be sure to just send me a rude comment informing me to "straighten up" or something along those lines.
I'm supposed to be working on an essay due tomorrow; however, I'm on Blogger instead due to the immense neglect I have shown my site.
In fact, I doubt anyone even reads these any longer. Is that correct? Oh, who am I kidding? If nobody reads these, then nobody is going to answer.
I go home in a week and let me just tell you about my joy right now.. IT'S A LOT OF JOY. Caps lock will have to do you justice right now since I can't actually express it too you. That means my birthday is in 10 days. Wooooo. A day full of cupcakes and sleeping. Or at least that is my plan. Maybe I'll throw in a dinner sometime in between there. Heck, maybe I will even visit a few friends. I'm just excited about the cake.
Lately, I've been dieting. (A healthy way. Or so I think.) I stick to a lot of fruits and vegetables and throw in a bit of protein here and there. Absolutely NO carbs though. I've also been exercising a lot lately. I go to the gym every single night and stick to one big meal a day and maybe a little one around 7 or 8 at night. Some would say that may not be healthy but you know what? It works for me.
I really want just a defined stomach. I mean.. working out and getting healthy is nice and all. But let's be realistic. The only reason most girls truly work out is because they want a kicking ass body. And I would also like to acheive this desire for one so here I am. Working out and eating healthy.
I've lost some weight but not to my liking. I plan to lose a bit more. Nothing crazy like 80lbs or any of that shit though.
I don't know if I informed you, reader. (...I probably didn't.) But I have a wonderful guy in my life. His name is Jeff. He's the greatest. We've known each other since summer and it's just been a great time since I've been with him. (pauses for the "awwwww" effect.)
I need to buy some fuzzy socks. My toes are freezing. You know what else I need to buy? A new stinkin' iPhone charger. Mine is going to poop. It's bent at this one part so it doesn't charge correctly unless it's in a certain position. And I basically can't use it when it's charging.
It's highly annoying.
My ear itches!
All better.
I have two essays due tomorrow that I have yet to start. But lucky for me and my apparent "writing skills", I should have no problem doing either of the two.
Campus is starting to get weird. A lot of kids are transferring or dropping out of my university so they are all excited for that but.. a bunch of new kids are coming back after break too. I'm sure they are excited for that too.
In complete honesty, I'm just glad to go home for break.
My first semester of college is complete after next week. WOOOOO.
Then it's all about good 'ol St. Nick and some cookies. Omnomnom.
Why do people never understand me when I say "omnomnom" or "noms"? I mean is it really that difficult? It just means like yummy or mmmm. You know? Maybe I'm just difficult.
...Now that I think about it, that's probably the answer.
Well, I'm going to jet out. I could write all night but I must start these papers.
I hope you still care about my blog, reader.
Leave a comment and ask some questions. I'll do a Q&A or something for my next blog tomorrow?
Yes please. It would make me very happy.

God bless.

xoxo,

Kayla

Forget About Me?

Hello reader. Eerything is going south. Nothing seems to be looking up any longer. My depression has completely worsened. Sometimes it feels unbearable. Crying hurts. Literally. I find myself just living. Living for just another day. One day at a time. I've slowly become numb to a lot of things. I don't see joy in much anymore. The reality is that everything just hurts. Everything has become so routine nowadays. I paint that smile on my face. I crack jokes. I make everyone think I'm okay, but I'm not. I'm far from okay.  I don't even know why I'm blogging right now. It's not like anyone reads these. So I just sit and wollow in my own feelings on a public site like a fucking cry baby that complains about her life all the time.
My dreams have been very violent and distorted lately. They don't make sense to me. Things just aren't making sense to me anymore. I sound psychotic, don't I? This is why I don't talk with people. I know I'm not crazy but the way I talk sometimes, makes it seen that way. I don't want to be seen like that. I don't.
I just.. writing doesn't properly express how I feel anymore. Maybe it's just a stage I'm going through. I don't know. I just.. I'm done for right now. Just. Done.

New Character for You

Do you enjoy learning about new characters in a book...errr, I meant new characters in a movie? Who reads anymore? Wait.. You. You're reading my typed words. Jokes on you. Man, I really need to become a comedian. Forget college!
...Okay, that was a bit too much.
I promised a certain somebody that I would blog about them to you, reader.
So meet Sara. Aka, sparkly cupcake mouse.
She's a senior. Blonde hair. Green eyes. Enjoys walking. Loves animals. Shares a passion of cupcake loving with me. Oh and.. She's single ;)
Oh... this isn't EHarmony?
...Awkward..
So this is my best friend and let me just tell you, she is the greatest friend I could possibly ever have been blessed with. She gets me and I can vent to her about anything and she has the right words to say, even if they are a tad bit harsh at times, to any ocassion.
I try my best to show her how much I appriciate her every day and I'm sure I fall short numerous times such as this blog. I've been working on it for the past three days but I've been so utterly busy that it has yet to be published. I don't even know if I will accurately display all the lovely things about this girl in just this blog. I know for a fact that I'll forget something. It's hard to describe such an amazing person in simply just a blog.
I met her before I switched schools the middle of my junior year. It had all started over a message on Facebook discussing the love of lemonade. From then on, we had talked and exchanged numbers and then I had ended up attending her high school. We got close due to our adoration for choir.
I'm really awkward when I first meet someone and talk to them and I'm sure that was what was going through her mind.
She's a year younger than me so when my senior year took place, we became instantly close which sucked because I knew that I'd be graduating and in a sense, leaving her. That thought was literally on my mind since I started school back in August of that year until May of the following year.
I didn't converse with many at that high school, mainly because it was so small that everyone literally knew each other since about.. well, kindergarten and I was just some new kid. I was determined to not get close to anyone and I didn't thnk I would, regardless, because of how small the school was. Then Sara and I happened.
I wasn't good at making friends but with Sara, it just came so naturally. It was almost like we were meant to be best friends and to this day, I still believe that.
Graduating was one of the hardest things I had to do. Like I said.. Not because I "loved" my class sooooooo much but because I had that one friend. This one friend who understood me. Who accepted my awkwardness. Who enjoyed my company. Who was one of the most caring people I knew and who never put up with people's shit but was still kind throughout it all.
After I graduated, I moved. I moved 1,710 miles away. That had to be one of the hardest things I had to do. Leaving her was like ripping out a piece of my heart and getting it just completely stepped on and pouring salt on the cuts. To this day, I still get emotional. I remember, the first few weeks.. I cried myself to sleep. I hate admitting this but.. I still have my nights that I cry myself to sleep because of how much it hurts still.
To keep me sane, we text consistently. (I actually just got a text from her when I said that.) We FaceTime. Thank you Apple. And we also do this weird thing where we record videos of ourselves or of something throughout the day and send it to each other. Our friendship is something unique and lovely and I feel it is really hard to come by.
I don't know what I would do without her. She keeps me so structured and she is one of the most mature people I've ever met. You would think she was twenty something. Seriously.
The amount of things she's gotten me through in two years is something I'll never be able to truly thank her for. All I can do is hope that I can be as great of a friend as she is to me.
She told me not to make this blog long and I'm trying my best but words can't even describe how grateful I am for her.
She has so much going for her. College is right around the corner for this girl and I know her future is going to be as bright as her smile.
One thing I love about our friendship is that we sing all the time, especially when we are together. In fact we even made a youtube video of us singing "I Won't Give Up" by Jason Mraz. It's kind of our song. Not in the romantic way, reader but because when the chorus switches it says:
"God knows I'm tough enough. We've got a lot to learn. And God knows we're worth it."
It is just a key phrase that sticks with us. I don't know.
I love this girl like a pig loves not being bacon. Like I said, I don't know what I would do without her. She gives me a sense of normality and sanity that no friend has ever given me before. She's the greatest best friend I could ever ask for and I hope you all liked learning about her too.
By the way, you can follow her or I on twitter and instagram if you'd like :) it would make her day and mine too.
My Twitter: @thatkaylaaagirl
My Instagram: @thatkaylaaaagirl
Sara's Twitter: @sarajomeyer
Sara's Instagram: @bambino2013

God Bless.
xo,
Kayla

Distortion

I don't know how to sum up how I feel right now, reader. It's one of those days where I could be in a room full of people and still feel alone. Maybe it's because it's October. October is one of the greatest months, along with the worst. It's the last full month I spent with Lyndsey before her death. Halloween was the last official day I had ever spent time with her, so you can probably imagine I never have really celebrated it fully since her passing.
My depression has really been taking a toll on me lately. I haven't told anyone because.. well, I don't open up to people. I keep it to myself. I've been so angry lately that Lyndsey is not alive. I have dreams of her and it hurts to wake up and know that it's not reality. Sometimes I feel like I'm just drowning in my emotions. Reality just hurts sometimes and I don't understand why I feel the way I do at times. Trying to decode my own emotions is difficult for me and I don't know if what I said just made any sense( it probably didn't) but just roll with it.
Life is so fragile but that could be taken in both a positive and negative light. It's positive because life is so short that you need to make the most out of it and enjoy what you have; however, on the other hand, life is also fragile because of the cruelty of others in our society that it can quite literally break a person completely down. It's not really optimistic versus pessimistic viewpoints, it's simply a deeper look into the word "fragile".
I've been thinking about my existence lately. The purpose for myself. I can't find one. I get lost trying to understand why I'm still on this earth after suicide attempts. What's so important that I have to be here? So many questions pace through my mind but there's no answer. You just have to suck up your pain and keep on moving. After the rain, there's sunshine but sometimes it's just hard to imagine light through darkness. When I get in these modes, it's like tunnel vision. I don't know how to explain it without making myself vulnerable to you, reader.
I was told once by a counselor that the best way to ease your anxiety and depression is through exercise. She used to tell me that pain is weakness leaving one's body. Granted, working out does improve how I feel health wise but mentally.. I still am the same. It doesn't reprogram my brain and suddenly change how I think just by running on a treadmill or lifting some weights.
Maybe.. Maybe my thinking is just.. completely distorted..
God Bless.
xo, Kayla

Surprise For You

Reader, I have something new for you. It'll have to be in sections because I have yet to complete this task I'm about to expose you too. I've been writing lately. Obviously not on my blog. (I apologize. Don't hate me.)
Anyways, I've been doing this task where I try and get into my mind through you, reader. I know, I know. It sounds strange.. Maybe even insane a little. Or a lot. But it's something that is really intriguing me lately. It's interesting feeling like a reader to my own work. Does that make sense? Anyways, here's the beginning of it. Give me feedback and I'll continue to add more and more to it. It would be very appreciated, young grasshopper :) -----I've yet to understand why I adore saying that. Enjoy. I'll have more in store for you if you give me comments. Good or bad. :) You've stuck by my side for a while now, reader and I appreciate it so very much.
God Bless.
xo, Kayla

Here you go: 

If you really knew me, what would you even know? Would you know all those dirty secrets that every person is “supposed” to have? Would you know the ins and outs of my soul? Truth is, reader, even if you “really” knew me, you wouldn't know a thing about me. And that, right there, is a fact.

                You can never fully understand a person’s motives, choices or reasoning behind anything that runs through their minds. You want to know why? Because us humans, we can all be honest, but certain ones that roam the worldly earth we live, can’t stand to show the real us. The real me is a disgrace to myself which is why, you, reader, will never truly know me.

                Now that doesn't mean you can’t know facts about me. That is far from what I’m referring to and I’m not saying I’m not an honest person because let me just tell you something. I am not a liar and I am very honest. My emotions are just difficult for some to decode including myself at times. Maybe this worldly concept I’m trying to discuss with you doesn't affect the population of humanity as a whole. Maybe it’s just me and what goes on in my brain because to be quite honest, I don’t know what races through your mind and now you will get a glimpse into what flows through mine.

                So what are you looking for to start this journey you are about to experience? To capture a reader’s attention, I was always taught three ways as I ventured through schooling. I could engage you in a shocking statistic but none come to mind. A heart-warming story is a great way to break the ice but I don’t feel like thinking into my past. There’s always an interesting fact but let’s face it, what’s so interesting about me? Exactly.

                Expressing emotions is a hard thing for me to do, reader, and you will discover that the more you read. I do hope to one day learn your name if someone ever does read this because quite frankly I can just tell that by the time I’m done writing this that I will get exceptionally tired of referring to you as “reader”.

                Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls, ever heard it? There’s a verse in it that says:

“And I don’t want the world to see me. Cause I don’t think that they’d understand. When everything’s meant to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.”

                Rereading that and analyzing that verse, I ponder. Do people really want to show their real selves or has the brainwashing society we subsist in informed us that our true self is no longer socially acceptable? It easy to argue either side but I think that one side will automatically stand out in your mind first versus the opposing part. Maybe I am wrong. That’s not a difficult task for me to accept, reader. However, I will let you analyze the question and decipher for yourself what the true answer is. Or maybe, just maybe, there will never truly be an answer. Chew on that.

                I’m sure I’ve yet to capture your attention, nonetheless if I have somehow managed to get you hooked, I’m certain you have most likely been confused a time or two. Am I at least right on that one?

                How do you feel about questions, reader? I suppose that was a ridiculous question itself to ask you, simply because my physical appearance does not remain in your presence.  Moving on. Maybe a more effortless way would be to ask you questions that I dwell on, but answer them myself. Or at least do my best to.  Sound good? Since I’m not a patient person, I will elucidate for you with a swift yes reply. Being a young adult, we are faced with many questions, quite frankly, for me at least, it feels like I’m faced with them constantly. There’s the question we don’t know the answer to, questions we knew the answer to years ago, questions that are simply just stupid and questions we could live our whole life without knowing the answer to.  But then, there are the questions. The questions we get catechized with that unmistakably gnaw away at our mind.

                For example, a family friend of mine asked me once “What is time?” and I honestly sat there attempting to seep into the depths of my intellectual knowledge to scrutinize what “time” actually was. There are certain questions that will never have a direct, straightforward answer.  Maybe that’s a superior article though because if we knew the answers to everything, there would be nothing left to discover.

Writing is an addiction, an obsession. They both go hand-in-hand. Inanimate objects tend to not be viewed as capable of having a relationship; however, the companionship I acquire from simply writing proves the statement above to be false. The reason why words on paper or on a screen are such a habit to me is due to the fact that I feel it’s the one true thing I can use to express myself. Writing gives me a sense of freedom like someone tied down by chains and being let go tends to feel. With a pencil and paper or a computer and Microsoft Word, I can create masterpieces. I’m not one that speaks my mind vocally. To write is an amazing talent. Thoughts coarse through your mind constantly, right? Those thoughts can be transformed into a piece of information that you can analyze in your mind, which can ultimately be written down or typed. It’s truly a magnificent process if you think about it. Without your own thoughts, writing could not exist and all you would hold would be memories stored in the back of your brain and I without writing would be a difficult task for me to even really comprehend. 

I Did This For You

I have neglected you, reader. I deeply apologize. So to make it up to you, I will do one of these tedious questionares that I absolutely despise. Enjoy :)


Are you attracted to the last person that kissed you?
I only kiss people I'm attracted to. So yes.

What did you do yesterday?
I had a recover day from the weekend and completed four papers.

Whats a fact about the last person you kissed?
He's afraid of ferris wheels. Isn't that strange?

Are you in a relationship with the last person you kissed?
I am not.

Something you really want right now?
Otter Pops and a back massage. Any takers? ..No? Cool.

Do you know any mechanical stuff about cars?
I know how to change oil. Please say that counts.

Do you hate the last guy you were talking to?
I do not hate anyone.

Last movie you watched?
I'm currently watching She's All That for the first time ever con my roommates.

One thing you're looking forward to?
To lay in my bed tonight and sleep.

What holiday is closest to your birthday?
Christmas. It's only nine days before that magnificent holiday.

Last night you felt?
Next question, please.

Are you taller than 5'5"?
Correction. I will never be taller than 5'5.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
I would like to think so but I suppose I don't really know.

Did you speak to your father today?
I talk to him every day.

What do you usually do right when you wake up?
Stretch and then check my text messages.

Who was the last person to call you?
Anyways..

Where do you wish you were right now?
Heaven.

Have you ever thrown a cell phone in anger?
I can't say I've ever thrown my cellular device.

Are you spoiled?
I've never been spoiled.

How old is the last person you kissed?
20.

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with the letter T?
I have not.

Has any one said they loved you & meant it?
Yes. Family and best friend.

Do you and your boyfriend say I love you?
I don't attain a boyfriend.

Do you usually have weird dreams?
Constantly.

What are you thinking about right now?
A lot; however, I'm sure you're not interested in my thoughts.

What color is your keyboard?
Black.

Is there a reason for your MySpace song?
What's MySpace again?

Will this weekend be a good one?
My weekends are never uneventful.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Forever 21.

Is the last person you hugged older than you?
Yes.

Has anyone gotten on your nerves lately?
I don't know how to answer that.

Who woke you up today?
This thing called an alarm.

Do you miss someone?
Forever I will miss some people.

What time did you wake up this morning?
6am. On a Monday morning?! I know, I was thinking the same thing.

What is on your bed right now?
A teddy bear...

Is your bedroom clean?
My dorm is an organized mess.

When's the last time you cried?
A half an hour ago.

What caused you to cry?
Don't worry about it.

Do you have a best friend?
Yes.

Would you rather go to a baseball game or football game?
Baseball. Hands down.

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
I change on a daily basis.

What were you doing at midnight?
Yelling at the people on the 4th floor.

Two Sides.

Do you ever think about death? I'm really not trying to freak you out, reader. But lately, I've been thinking about it a lot. It's like.. consuming my mind. What really is death? Life completely ends for your physical body. Maybe it's like a plant. A plant starts as a seed, grows into beauty but eventually has to wilt away and die. Death is something we can't escape. It's inevitable and it's something every human being has in common.
It also puts emotions on others effected by the event. You know.. when you loose someone to death.. Almost all of us should be able to relate to that. If you have not experienced the tragedy, you are one lucky person and I envy you. For those of us who have experienced it, the feeling is far from extravagant. The dread, the pain, the discomfort, the longing and the depression all eat away at you. Your heart constantly aches and you always and forever feel lonely. Nothing feels whole anymore and you will find yourself continually longing for their existence. Knowing you will never have it again is the worst realization.
Then there's death itself, for the actual person. Depending on the cause of death, I feel that each person will find the peace they deserve. Okay, maybe not everyone. You get my point though, right? I hope so. I think a person knows when they will die, well most. I'm sure you get a feeling that comes over you where you know that it's the end. When you're ready. When you know it's time to go. That's not the case for everyone, accidents happen. And we can't always control them. Something so ordinary could take our life in an instant.
I'm not sure where I'm getting with this. Maybe I'm getting nowhere with this or maybe I have you thinking.
Night...

God bless...
xo, Kayla...

Questions? Yes.

Name of the last person to text you?

Twitter. Don't judge me.

When is your next road trip?

Right now. I'm currently making a road trip across my room to retrieve a puppy of mine.

What is the weather like?

Well, the sun is currently out. It's about 70 now since it's later in the afternoon. Why? Who is coming to see me?

What do you think about before you go to bed?

Uh, sleep? Isn't that normal?

Where is your phone?

Plugged into my charger and on my lap.

How many close friends do you have?

4.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?

Yes, they're easier than girls.

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Obviously? If everything happened without a reason, wouldn't you be slightly confused? Thought so.

Have you ever broken someone else's heart?

I apologize....

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

There is room for a second chance. But that's it.

Do you wear flip-flops during the winter?

Uhm no. I prefer to not have my toes amputated.

Do people say you have pretty eyes?

I've been told. However, gimme blue eyes then I'll agree.

What do you carry with you at all times?

My cellular device.

Do you wear your seat belt in the car?

I tend to. Click it or ticket, bucko.

Do you smile often?

I always find a reason to.

Have you ever touched an elephant?

It's always been a lifelong dream of mine; however, I have not accomplished that.

Do you have trust issues?

Doesn't everybody? I don't see people just handing it out now-a-days.

What are you going to do after this?

Continue eating Hot Cheetos. I'm fat. Leave me alone.

Do you want to get married and have kids?

Well, yes. Everybody tends to aim for that.

When is your birthday?

December 16th. Are you getting me something?

Do you still pinky promise?

My pinky promises often. And I quack occasionally.

Do you believe everyone has a soul mate?

I do.

Do you like surprises?

I'm not a fan of surprises.

Merp.

Merppppppppppp. Howdy. Hey there. How's it going? I'm currently texting my friends Sara and Isaac about two completely different topics. You know how everyone has special little talents and stuff they are good at? I think I just found mine. Yes, I'm an eighteen year old who just found this out about herself. Don't laugh. (Break time. Just got a text.) Awwww. My friend Sara just told me that I need to write a book because my writing skills are super uber fantastic. Boy oh boy is that lady wrong. :)

Anyways, back to me. Gosh I'm a bitch. Kidding. Anyways, the talent I just discovered about myself. I'm fricken RANDOM. And the amount of random facts I withhold is unbelievable for your human mind to comprehend. Wait.. I'm human too. Uh.. anyways, just somehow embrace what I just said.. err.. typed?

Here it goes.

1.In some men, one of the after effects of ejaculation is sneezing.

2. A lot of Adolf Hitler's soldiers contracted STDs from prostitutes that he had to buy blow up sex dolls for them.

3. Urea, the chemical that's mostly found in your urine and makes it smell bad, is also found in cigarettes to enhance flavor.

4. In China, nearly half a billion of the population doesn't brush their teeth at all.

5. Octopus, shrimp, horseflesh and cow tongue are popular flavors of ice cream in Tokyo.

6. If you're in North Carolina and make love on the floor of a hotel room between two double beds, you're legally bound to be penalized.

7. If you live in Japan, you can name your child "Buttocks" or "Prostitute" and it is socially acceptable.

8. If you want to stop yawning, touch your tongue when you feel like it. This should remove the effects of it.

9. A Church that worships the penis does in fact exist. This Canadian church also has regular group masturbating sessions.

10. If you are abducted by aliens, an Insurance company does exist that's willing to pay $1 every year for the next million years.

I better stop here. You are going to soon get overwhelmed with my range of facts. I do hope you laughed, giggled, smiled or at least shook your head. I'm not even sure what the difference between giggle and laugh is. Leave a comment and let me know what you would like me to talk about. It would be much appreciated. 

God Bless.

xo, Kayla